You don’t ask me to speak. You never expect my opinion. I was your second child In a runaway marriage. I suppose I loved you once,

The grass was dewy. You carried me on your back. I could feel your heartbeat Through your shirt. I wanted you to be mine,

Last year seems years away. Last night seems lifetimes away. This moment seems like a dream.

I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

Don’t cry Don’t cry Don’t cry Because it’s your birthday.

I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.

I could hop on a train. Grow akin to the screaming and whi… Where would I go? Far from here, from cold. Tell my parents my love,

In my house, You don’t ask questions. The whispers from mom and dad Signal you to a hiding place. In my house,

What you meant– What I meant When I said, “I love you.” What you meant to me Wasn’t what you said

My mom hates her life, And I’m too much to juggle, And my dad doesn’t support my mom, And my brother’s never home, And my medicine doesn’t work,

You are the best thing Because things like that do not co… You are my moon and sun Because you make my days real. You are my best friend,

Then he said, “I never said I was… Then I said, “I never asked you t… Then we kissed.

I died on Tuesday. My soul floated up Above my milky corpse, And I smiled. I saw my family,