i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable