10:43 pm
i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go
if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?
i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was
i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…
i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming
i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…
i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call
always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger
people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much
tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing
same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -
i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize
i feel... “okay” really that mean i’ve been dissoci… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,
there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.
it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting