my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call