#SunSummerHeat
i laughed out loud. the world didn’t implode.
he kissed along my scars and asked… i tangled my fingers in his hair a…
i am far more childish than i ever allowed myself to be
trying not to cry in the holiday i… my mama said something mean again
“i hope they don’t turn out like y… and yeah, i think, that’s about ri… i hope they don’t either.
i’m not entirely sure i’m alive, s… saying that makes me seem crazy or… maybe i am, maybe it matters, but i don’t really think it does. you have your hands on my thigh.
i want to cry and count all your f… decorate your face with stickers a… then maybe you could hold me and w… do you think?
i love it when fading sunlight hit… lighting up my eyes and every line… then, i start understanding why i… but, when it’s not dawn or dusk, i’ll close the blinds and curtains…
insomnia, violence, puncture wound… a razor, eating your organs raw, a… impatient, obsessive, humiliating.
i don’t miss you as much as i thou… isn’t that terrible? aren’t i such… i told you, curling into myself, s… that i smell your clothes when i f… i refused to wash them or set them…
you ask me if i have dreams and i start telling you about the… that haunt me when i try to sleep but then you look at me and laugh uncomfortably and say,
the ocean makes a damned pagan out… i turn into the little kid i was w… the ocean reminds me i’m in limbo. reminds me i’ve come from boat peo…
you hurt me so much, but i never h… i just hated you for telling me it…
i let you watch me lose my goddamn… raging at the wallpaper and crying… i let you listen to the burning an… and the pop of a pill bottle openi… i let you feel the screaming apolo…
you go to touch me, and i bite your soft, warm fingers… then when you’ve left, i cry because i’m cold.