(20150919)
Staring down Into my own Oblivion Self destruction Impossible to escape
There are so many things I’d like to say to you But when I see your face My mind just goes blank I’m terrified
It didn’t happen all at once The stress of impact And the heat of friction Combined Has a natural result
In the street. Pensive glares pregnant with meaning. Imagined Memories. Greetings between Former lovers wrenched
I want to hate you I want to blame you For all the pain In my heart I want to hate you
Little I can do Now that I have injured you I must disgust you
Driven too long with out coolant With out lubricant, my wife Blew the head gasket on the old Buick century. Now lifeless on the flatbed. Wait…
It has never changed My heart’s inclination. I am still drawn to you. Having known you I cannot see you
I know That you still feel The same as I do I know That it can only
2014-12-29-22-53-36_poetryx choose each moment how to act what to say
Letting go Is not a choice That I can just make There are no simple steps I can mechanically perform
I thought I was the adult I had the years that is without question But experience and wisdom Those were yours
To have kept you Would have cost me Nothing To have lost you
Today is the last day I am going to do this to myself The last day I will hold on to any hope Today is the last day
I’ve lost it again The words were just there Right on the tip Of my mind Now they’ve descended
