How can somebody Who loves to explore Be so afraid to leave?

In my daydreams, I used to be an acrobat, Flying through air Into capable hands. In my dreams,

I came back from a mortal hell, But on my way home, I saw no white god, And I saw no golden spirit, And I saw no true son.

I’m silently screaming Alone in the bathroom. The tears of a sinner Won’t let my fears go. I’m suddenly drowning.

I find it funny That I raised myself From the cradle To the grave. I never got a chance to be a baby.

Oh, such a sweet fool. I once thought love Was reigning savior. So, so foolish. I once believed love

This feeling Makes me want to bless my friends… And find redemption in death. I want to stand in the rain 'Til my bones shake apart

She fell like rain, Like a bird, Like a comet chasing light, Like a star dropping from the nigh… Like a stone in water,

You are the best thing Because things like that do not co… You are my moon and sun Because you make my days real. You are my best friend,

Moon up, Pants down. I said no. His body said yes.

Why do I still feel guilty About things That are out of my favor?

He helps her with her blush. She’s surging red, Velvet and soft like a rose. Her mouth’s gone dry With his wind.

I cried out to God, And There was silence.

A seagull carried me away one day And took me to a secret island hid… I laughed at the waves and splashe… I even wrote notes to go with a so… The seagull was leaving and waved…

Mark, I miss you, And I love you. Each day is lost Without you.