June 17th, 2023
Do not assume these words of hurt Are directed at you I have bared to you my heart and s… Yet our words remained withheld Do not assume these words of pain
This bed is too big I have too much space These blankets are too much Engulfing me, but I still shiver I have too much food
It’s easy to tell someone, “Just move on”, When you weren’t the one In their shoes. It’s easy to tell someone,
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
What I do Was for you Now it’s me Found self love But I still
Adrift in the abyss Dappled with distant lights Imagination connects the dots To make sense of this predicament I was anchored on the satellite
Like a tower of crystal glasses My hope stacks higher Waiting to come crashing down And lacerate my heart below A thousand tiny shards
Rest your head on my shoulder When you’re feeling tired Let me sing of your praises When you need to be inspired Bend my ear to your lips
Were your reasons true? Were they for me or for you? Was there really nothing we could… I wonder. Why was it easier to hide?
I wish that these words No longer reflect my pain But my devotion
A sudden Good-Bye Is not a finality But a paused Hello
This hope A cold burning A flame made of shadow Fueled by need and fueled by desir… Goes out
I want to walk away I want this hope to stay I’m twisted and torn My promise, I’m sworn To see you again someday
Help me to understand it Help open up my eyes I’m trying to move past it But I can’t seem to see why When we’re together
People always say, “These feelings will fade away” Which ones, love or pain?