(2014)
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
