I had no right To fall in love with you. All those times I promised you That I’d never fall in love again Were lies because I fell in love…

She fell like rain, Like a bird, Like a comet chasing light, Like a star dropping from the nigh… Like a stone in water,

You’re bleeding down my legs, Tangling me up in your fingers. I want to run my nails down your b… And sigh in your ear.

Perfection is an evil reflection On what is really real. Solitude is my gratitude When I am sad. Numbness equals oneness

You’re horrible, And I hate you. But this is me. I’m the only person That I can’t escape.

Let my joy be a promise To my future self Who is so beautiful Even if she isn’t pretty.

I feel so lonely. I want to die. Feeling like the only one on earth… My laughter is a lie. Laugh on, laugh on.

Don’t cry Don’t cry Don’t cry Because it’s your birthday.

The tissues know something. Even the mirror knows. My music knows it And especially my pillow. My books can see it

While I’m alone, He’s with her. While I’m crying, He’s kissing And rolling

I find it funny That I raised myself From the cradle To the grave. I never got a chance to be a baby.

You’re young. You’ll feel better. You’ll get better Eventually. So much time to feel better.

Nobody wishes so Such as me To die quickly Or be mauled in Such a manner that

That red ribbon is so wrinkled. Rouge like blood Or rushing anger Or a blaring stop sign. It’s crumpled:

You ruined me. How could you? You’re my mother. You were supposed to be strong. Not me.