Like Augustus, I fear oblivion When I should pass.
Last year seems years away. Last night seems lifetimes away. This moment seems like a dream.
God, thank you For darkness, And fear, And death. Thank you
Without you, I feel the pain. The rain seems cold now. Thunder is only evil, And the sky is bare and pale.
Am I incurable? It seems so. I’m an incorrigible invalid Of the heart.
I’m silently screaming Alone in the bathroom. The tears of a sinner Won’t let my fears go. I’m suddenly drowning.
Let my joy be a promise To my future self Who is so beautiful Even if she isn’t pretty.
I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,
But I’m still a kid Only don’t tell my dad that. He’ll say, no, you’re not a kid And you haven’t been a kid in a lo… I guess that when I cry,
It’s like waking up from your best… To find that it’s all gone. When you love someone who isn’t re… And you say, “I’m done.” It’s like swimming in Heaven,
The stars belong to both the sun And the moon Just as my heart does belong to yo… You may not see me, but I’ll be there.
I dislike nothing more than Philosophy. How lazy.
I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth
I remember how I cried When they cut down Our tree.
It’s so quiet. I feel soft. The winter hurts, So I burrow inside, But I forget how to
