i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

i feel... “okay” really that mean i’ve been dissoci… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call