it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -