2:02 am
it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting
jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore
i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,
i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming
i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go
tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing
i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…
i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most
i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine
i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call
i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was
there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.
i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…
if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?
people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much