people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was