June 12, 2023 I can wait 1000 lifetimes for you
Do not mistake my silence, For absence. I will always be there for you. Always. But I must be here for myself,
When we met You found me At my worst When we loved Time stood still
It’s easy to tell someone, “Just move on”, When you weren’t the one In their shoes. It’s easy to tell someone,
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
Rest your head on my shoulder When you’re feeling tired Let me sing of your praises When you need to be inspired Bend my ear to your lips
A sudden Good-Bye Is not a finality But a paused Hello
As the waves crash along the shore Which seems so far away, I ask myself; Why do I swim? Pushed from a ship
Help me to understand it Help open up my eyes I’m trying to move past it But I can’t seem to see why When we’re together
Most people drain me But you are not most people You recharge my soul
Because you brighten my day Even when the sun’s shining When I’m feeling down & fret You’re my silver lining Your warmth is like a buffet
It would be easier If I could hate you If you had so utterly decimated me That I couldn’t stand again It would be easier
This bed is too big I have too much space These blankets are too much Engulfing me, but I still shiver I have too much food
Were your reasons true? Were they for me or for you? Was there really nothing we could… I wonder. Why was it easier to hide?
As I step forward I look back for one last time I wish you all the best
Like a tower of crystal glasses My hope stacks higher Waiting to come crashing down And lacerate my heart below A thousand tiny shards
