i am beginning to blur at the edge… i’ve been becoming something of lo… i think i’ve wanted this storm lon… that it will wash me away with it.

“who do you think you look like mo… on a hot august day (as they usual… “your mom or your dad?” you swung back and forth on the wo… i drawled my reply, thick as the a…

i love breaking your heart. call me a sadist, i don’t particul… i’ll reel you back in like a trout…

you go to touch me, and i bite your soft, warm fingers… then when you’ve left, i cry because i’m cold.

i love it when fading sunlight hit… lighting up my eyes and every line… then, i start understanding why i… but, when it’s not dawn or dusk, i’ll close the blinds and curtains…

i flick the lighter on, on, on off. a useless fidget, one that turns my thumb gray and r…

“who ruined winter for you?” “i did.”

i’m asking you to sunbake me, politely. i want to melt into the cracks, like earth-ending dinosaur juice.

i am the parasite and i am the hos… i’m cold and my hair is falling ou… i haven’t eaten in awhile but my t… no one knows how to pull this hung… because i am the sickness and i am…

sit across from me, with no space in between. chest again chest, and our legs folded awkwardly. wrap your arms around my neck,

aren’t we all just lambs in a slau… we’re madmen given knives and rope… god is a sadist, but he doesn’t wa… i don’t hide from god, i hide from you.

there’s something so forgiving in being angry on behalf of a chil… who no one was angry for.

when the ash settles down and you… wild and dancing, you see blackeni… you see the ending of it all and i… the way it dances and beckons you… the way you wish it would.

she carves her name in my thigh wi… i let her, looking down at her fro… while she sits there on her knees… i tell her i love her and she just… she’s known because she always kno…

i feel your words in my bones, and… you’ve got me shaking, you’ve got… you ever think about the fact that… i do, every goddamn day. you came into the world with a ven…