I (don’t) hate you
Every time I think hate you
My heart decides otherwise
More so when the darkness seeps through the windows
And I lose all control
Dragged through the memories
Forced to relive every wonderful and evil moment between us
To cry at every heartache
To laugh at the silly times
And regret the words I left unsaid
But most of all
Be ashamed of the person I was with you
Desperate
Needy
Clingy
I relive every moment I begged you to stay
While you laughed in my face
Turned your back on me
In every which way
Watched me lose every bit of dignity I had left
As I ran back into your arms
The second you showed me an ounce of kindness
Pathetic isn’t it
I’ve never wanted to scream fuck you
And I love you more than I did when i realized you were never coming back
