High Expectations
Among the dirt
and grime
that surrounded the pitiful
existence of this person I once was,
there laid some hope beneath
it.
I’m living under the expectations,
and upon the high pedestal I am
placed on,
and sit with my back straight,
and my head held high.
But I’m drowning can’t you see?
that all that surrounds me is ugly,
and destroyed?
That I break them for fun,
just to watch them tarnish,
to witness the sun disintegrate them
under it’s gaze.
And I laugh at the pain that I
have inflicted,
bask in the darkness that
surrounds everything corrupted.
And can you see that small child?
She died in the fire,
among everything that was lost
within the hell we inspire.
So I’ve climbed my way down,
from the very high stool,
without anyone looking I ran away,
but look they found me
and glued me to surface
so I can’t escape...
I’m waiting in this place,
staring at the same walls
the same amount of space
that the mass of my emotions take up.
As they build they become denser
ready to explode...
And then..
BOOM!
There it went
I exploded on everything
perfect.
Ruined expectations,
and foreseen occasions.
I destroyed the future,
that was within my grasp.
Just to watch the flames go up,
and enjoy being free for once.
But freedom comes with a cost.
Without my chains,
I have no Identity,
no place to go,
and no one to belong too.
I’m finally alone...
getting ready to implode...
And I’ve created a sea,
where misery grows like fungi
in a damp stream.
I’ve made an ocean of tears,
where I’ve drowned my fears,
good bye everything I had...
I’m finally in the clear.
(2013)
So I hope you enjoy. I kinda just wrote this free hand. It's not that great but whatever.
#Destroyed #ExpectationsExplode #Fear #Misery #Perfect #Unhappy
