Are you the person I met? The person I fell in love with? Were you really just someone else; Trying to be what you thought I w… Are you anyone?

There are so many things I’d like to say to you But when I see your face My mind just goes blank I’m terrified

I want to hate you I want to blame you For all the pain In my heart I want to hate you

The two of them sat face to face by the banks of the narrow stream smoking cigarettes, throwing stone… and dismantling

I never told you a lie I was honest from the start You knew about my wife You knew who I was You accepted the facts

Letting go Is not a choice That I can just make There are no simple steps I can mechanically perform

Does it really matter Whose fault it was What’s been done Can’t be undone Anyways

Staring down Into my own Oblivion Self destruction Impossible to escape

It has never changed My heart’s inclination. I am still drawn to you. Having known you I cannot see you

You are a pain I can’t put out of… You are an ache I can’t cease to… The momentary joy worth limitless… Knowing the pain that was before m… I chose to embrace that momentary…