(2014)
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
