For you.
(2014)
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice