What you meant– What I meant When I said, “I love you.” What you meant to me Wasn’t what you said

In my house, You don’t ask questions. The whispers from mom and dad Signal you to a hiding place. In my house,

I feel so lonely. I want to die. Feeling like the only one on earth… My laughter is a lie. Laugh on, laugh on.

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

I can’t cease to think about him. His bitter way only warms my heart… He frightens me and excites me. He always heightens my senses. He makes my heart hurt.

She looked like innocence And felt like sin And died like grace And fell like a bird And fell like a bird

I don’t understand. I don’t understand the cruelty The darkness The fear This choking feeling.

Last night, all I saw was Nancy. The way she cried when I held her… Like a fleshy cradle Around her broken heart. I saw her loving me

There’s so much blood in blood cou… As there are stones in my heart When I hear your name. The winged-pig can fly daily Once I’ve let myself remember

This feeling Makes me want to bless my friends… And find redemption in death. I want to stand in the rain 'Til my bones shake apart

Let my joy be a promise To my future self Who is so beautiful Even if she isn’t pretty.

Splattered you All over my body And flecks of skin Inside every crevice. I can’t get rid of you

Listening to you sleep, I’m in grace. Each breath a prayer. Every rustle a litany. You don’t know how loud you are

He thinks I’m pretty And maybe too witty, That I was worth the fight. He claimed he’s so glad. I’m the best he’s ever had.