honestly idk what to tag this but theres something about how afab people live and die to be pretty no matter what. stream brand new city by mitski. it will not help but like do it anyways
#MaleGazeMentalIllness
insomnia, violence, puncture wound… a razor, eating your organs raw, a… impatient, obsessive, humiliating.
and if the doorbell scares you we can hide in your mom’s closet hand in hand i’ll try and be brave for us and if the man turns the corner
i laughed out loud. the world didn’t implode.
i love saying no, and watching men who are not accustomed to hearing… grow mad and confused. betrayed by the idea of me ruining… and not the other way around.
nobody knows how to love me right, and no one fucks me quite like i d… i’m just sittin’ here like a ragin… and no one wants me but they’ll ta… i’m foaming at the mouth like i tr…
you go to touch me, and i bite your soft, warm fingers… then when you’ve left, i cry because i’m cold.
i let you watch me lose my goddamn… raging at the wallpaper and crying… i let you listen to the burning an… and the pop of a pill bottle openi… i let you feel the screaming apolo…
i’m sick of people telling me they… and then reach for the knife lodge… just to twist it. fuck you guys for that. fuck me for falling for it.
i’m sitting in an old 2000s chevy with r&b music playing loud from t… my shoulders slipping out from und… and i’m either a sex symbol or something holy.
aren’t we all just lambs in a slau… we’re madmen given knives and rope… god is a sadist, but he doesn’t wa… i don’t hide from god, i hide from you.
i’m waiting for the good part, i’m praying real hard that it’s st…
i like dogs that bark and girls wh… yelling boys and little kids under… trying to figure out what to call… and always picking out “bones” or… i love animals and lovers with sca…
i left you, but you never had the… you walked right out that door wit… you slipped into the cracks of me. you know how mad it drives me? i feel you move around, inside and…
staying alive is the most terrifyi…
he kissed along my scars and asked… i tangled my fingers in his hair a…