inspired by phoebe bridgers if u couldnt tell
#InadequacyLowSelfEsteemDevotion
sometimes i wonder what god is. she’s the gentle hand and the draw… those flash floods and the never e… she lays the bricks and then turns… they tell me,
there’s a swarm of vultures overhe… something is dead.
god lives in a church. so, i’ve been breaking their stain… trying to figure out which one he’…
you hurt me so much, but i never h… i just hated you for telling me it…
i miss being a kid when the saddes…
i’m spilling red wine on your whit… it’s on purpose, just so i can poi… look! we match ‘cause my white shit is already st…
there has got to be something fuck… that would ever make you look at m… “yeah, i want to love that.” and there has always been somethin… that keeps hoping someone will cho…
he’s full of tuesdays and peonies, and i’m made up of saturdays and b… so he says, forgive and forget, and i say, get high and throw dart… he’s got his arms open wide
everything is muffled and clean wh… i have bathed in dust and soil, an… i lay on your cool kitchen tile an… a constant reminder that i’m here,… but now with me here there is mud…
i want to cry and count all your f… decorate your face with stickers a… then maybe you could hold me and w… do you think?
just puked up cookie batter; sending my love to illinois.
it’s embarrassing but, god i love, love, love you i’ll swear on everything i own, and everything i’ve ever wanted that i love you in ways i didn’t t…
you ask me if i have dreams and i start telling you about the… that haunt me when i try to sleep but then you look at me and laugh uncomfortably and say,
staying alive is the most terrifyi…
you go to touch me, and i bite your soft, warm fingers… then when you’ve left, i cry because i’m cold.