In Loving Memory Rickie Lee Hawthorne
(2014)
My heart was paper now folded six times over to make it harder to tear I only hope that
All that I know how to do is write about death without dying and write about life
I awoke in the dark next to you and more alone than ever I was amazed to hear your heart beating from
You were the wind beneath my wings but I was Icarus so all I did
I wish you had told me that on the good days kissing you would make me think that I knew what happiness was and on the bad days
Just when I get back on my feet you pass on by and I lose my footing Again
Loving you was never sweet like the taste of vanilla the way I thought it was supposed to be It was more like
Under the weight of life I forget how to breathe and I feel suffocated I hesitantly make peace with the world
The pen must be mightier than the sword For there is nothing that will spill your guts faster than a bit of ink that says
Passion doesn’t arise from 12 point Times New Roman but rather from ink on one page and another
So much time passes without feeling a single thing that I think I would give anything
I spend my nights wishing on every star in the sky that you are alive and well
I was like a rain cloud over a small garden and dammit if you weren’t that garden so full of flowers that I fell in love
Forever seems like so long until I think of all the times spent waiting
There is poetry in nature better left to be spoken wordlessly by the breeze