My Crowded Mind
7/24/2023
I can’t remember a time where my mind was quiet
When my thoughts were tucked away in the corridors of my mind
Where I could sit in silence without my brain screaming at me
At every moment I have so many thoughts rushing through—clashing and mixing
Forming a giant incoherent mass of unuttered garbage
Sometimes my mouth tries to catch up with the speed of my mind
It always fails
They will never run the same pace
My mind will always jump and leap and race with thousands of things at once
I don’t know if it will ever stop
I don’t know if I want it to
Do I prefer the loudness of my mind to the absence of it?
Is a silent mind more agonizing than a noisy one?
—I’ll let you know when it happens
