Bionic Woman, by Laura Alaniz | poems, essays, and short stories in Poeticous

Laura Alaniz

Laura Alaniz

Bionic Woman

My pump

Constant companion

Of my disease

My sensor

Resembles a feeding

Bed bug

I love you

I hate you

I fight with you

Every day

Bells and alarms

I hear in my dreams

Everyone says

It makes life easier

How is this easy?

I chose you

Not for convenience

But because

Numbers don’t lie

(2014)

#1Diabetes #InsulinPumpType

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