I dream of taking my last breath

The last inhale before going under water is all I think about

I dream of my arms bleeding out

The last cut that deep enough to kill is all I think about

I dream of sleeping and never waking up

Taking the last pill from the bottle before they’re all in your mouth is all I think about

I wish sleep stopped me from thinking about it all but

sleeps feeds my desire

sleep makes my dreams feel even more realistic

I want to make it realistic