Drowning.

thats what it felt like

every single second of his            

life                        

like when he was a kid and          

his friend would hold him under                    

water to count the seconds              

that he could hold his breath              

except two things              

one

he had no friends

no one that was there for him

no one he couldve talked with

two

he couldnt get up

he couldnt

just gasp for air because

there is none

not here

like an abyss of his cold heart

they took it all away from him

the pacifier of a baby

from all of the insults and

the harsh words coming out of

their

treacherous chatty traumatizing mouths

that would just go on to later drown him

in the deep, dark depths of death

crash

of the ocean tide

the water choking the life out of him

depression is like drowning

except you see everyone around you

Breathing.